I love sobriety. I guess I just am trying to process a lot of the chaos it caused in my life. Those old behaviors are now in a clear light and it frightens me to know that I drank in an unhealthy manner for a long time.
I guess I am just observing people who relapse and that scares me. I'm fairly isolated because I have had to protect my sobriety. I kind of wish I had seen my alcoholism for what it was sooner but I have made progress dealing with past mistakes.
I feel more responsible and mature but I don't know if that is from sobriety or emotional growth. I guess it is both.
So I'm not bored with sobriety but my perspective of it is changing. It is the necessary condition for my being able to be responsible, mature, and stable.
I feel like I may finally be growing up. Lots to do. Lots to catch up on.
I guess it just feels good to quit being a damn fool. I feel proud of my decision to make sobriety the most important thing in my life.