This posts sounds very familiar. I started feeling like a loser in my social circle for continuing to get trashed at clubs and parties at 25/26 when everyone else I know in the approaching 30, 30+ range were able to have a few drinks throughout the night and be fine. :/ I still went out to the clubs, but as time went on, no one would talk to me because they knew I had a problem. All the bouncers know me and that I might be drunk before I even get inside or sneak alcohol in, which sucks because then I have to go get a coffee and provide the receipt, and get searched before I'm allowed in. Having fun without alcohol is something I'm yet to try. Last time I went to a club with my boyfriend sober, I started crying before going in. Then at some point, I dragged him into the alley out back and started a fight with him for talking to my ex. I think it was just out of frustration. Maybe that changes in time.
Nice work on the 31 days. Best decision to quit before things get out of control.