My problem I am having at the moment, is I am already grieving over the loss of my loved one, and grieving for what they have lost and the pain and distress they are in. I feel helpless. My Beast, with the increased activity I have been experiencing since the last test results came back very bad, and the deterioration of their condition, is gleeful, shouting through the AV, you really think you'll be able to cope with this without a drink?
I am very lucky in that I have gotton to my 40s and never lost anyone close to me through death before.
My Beast suggesting drinking and my grieving are two different things. The Beast is stuck in one mode of operation. It offers no solutions, it offers no comfort, it just offers it's own agenda of lets get a buzz on.
That in no way helps me for this situation, or any other, so it is discounted. Just realising this has quieted It a lot.