tomsteve

i felt that way a time or 50 when i was drinking,too. used to crank that song thinkin,"dead and bloated- that's my destiny." i used to say that about quite a few different songs( ozzy's suicide solution, metallica master of puppets).

but i found out that was just a lie i was telling myself .

i read ya type about 'figuring it out." the great thing is ya don't have to do that- theres a few recovery programs that have figured out how to stop drinking for good and gain a better life.

something sobriety has given me is the ability to crank out them songs, listen to the instrumental of the songs( i never really did that before. now i can tune into it and hear the talent), hear the lyrics and say,"thats deeper than i remember and i was heading there. dam glad im not today!"