Couple of weeks later. I met that Somali guy again and apologized for my aggressiveness.
'Be the change you want to see in the world'
My old sponsor never got back to me I got another one with 14 yrs clean time, a strong message and a long history of relapse before 'success'.
Am writing the step work out regularly.
Seriously considering leaving my masters project it is obvious i am only pandering to my supervisors ego and learning nothing at present. It also feels a little fraudulent the original data base came from my supervisor yet I'm not to mention its origins - dodgy!
Reasons for staying are all egoic - more qualifications to stick under my name. I have other (writing) ambitions that align with helping others and wish to pursue these more freely.
For now I've not made the decision I am just 'pretending' I have left the project to see how it feels/fits.
'Try before you buy'
Life is much better than it was using and I am very grateful. i am working hard on my recovery including enrolment in a two year long 12-step based group program.
'You get out what you put in'
Hope y'all are well.