Serenity at last
I have 3.5 months sober. I started my journey 2 years ago, looking up AA meetings and sitting in the parking lot. I didn't have a problem like THEM. After many blackouts, went to first meeting one year ago yesterday. I wasn't like THEM. No dwi's, no jail, no job loss......March, went back again....I can do this, but this higher power crap isn't going to fly, I'm strong on my own.....July 29th....as I dug a hidden bottle of vodka out of the garbage pail that was covered with dog poop from the yard, I realized, yeah. I guess I do have a problem. I've opened my heart to my higher power since that moment of degrading desperation. Today, for the first time in 10 years, I've felt serenity. And for THAT, I'm grateful