Mingming,
I have "put up" with my boyfriends behavior for 6 years now. He drank, did drugs, and was a party animal when we met. Now 6 years, a beautiful little girl, and complete hearbreak later, "all" he does is drink...He claims he drinks because of me. And yet I stay, I wonder every day if it will ever get better. I know the answer...but I am afraid of it. I feel like I can't leave. Even after all of the excuses he has given me to leave. The main line: if I leave, will he care? I am afraid to answer this as well. I can not give you advice and tell you that you are better off leaving and forgetting...b/c I can't bring myself to face the same music. Here's to hope...wherever that may be.