My motivation has come from the slow acceptance that I am powerless over alcohol, and that once I start drinking, I cannot stop, which then can lead to severe consequences in my life. I have to stay away from that first drink to prevent the physical and mental addiction and obsession because once it sets in, I may never be able to recover again and will be stuck in that daily torture of trying to get my Day 1 but being unable to actually succeed in getting it.
I have some daily anxiety because I know I have this illness, and that I am one sip away from possibly destroying my life.