Originally Posted by
Volshen 
I guess on those days my heart just isn't in staying away from a drink .. no motivation.
Oh, you have motivation, except its motivation to drink. It pushes aside any reason to do otherwise. And why? Because your addiction knows it will be rewarded with drinking.
When you say no to drinking, completely, it doesn't take motivation to drink. It just takes commitment to your decision to get sober.
So maybe it isn't a question of motivation, but one of commitment. Why can't you commit to sobriety?