He went to inpatient rehab today. I'm numb. I'm cried out. I'm no longer sober and don't know what to do now. I'm thinking outpatient. We can't afford for us both to go somewhere. I feel guilty. Is that weird? I don't know how to carry on with day to day at this point. Please tell me it gets better. The look on his face as we said goodbye could've killed me. I'm lost.