I think he would understand if I said i couldn't go but I know he'd be hurt. I'm the only friend invited- the others are family members. He's had a rough couple of years and I'm loathe to let him down and make him feel like crap. It'd be yet another time I've disappointed and let someone close to me down.
If I hadn't wasted so much time this year drinking and not going to work, I'd easily afford this. I'm not very proud of myself at the moment.
I don't know what to do.