Thanks so much for that lifeseeker! Glad you posted. I will try and share more of this stuff and not try and hide it, like its all under control or somthing. Because its often not. On of my triggers are establishments with windows where you can easily see in from the street. The insanity of this disease is despite all the crap drinking has caused me. I still look at those places and would like to try it again.
Stayinalive, I can relate to your situation, as I also lost my license, and depend on my bike to get to around also. I hope you can achieve sobriety. Have you gave AA a try? That has worked for me, but only when I do my part.