My sympathy, as I think you're amongst the most in desperate need of help here.
I hope you receive that from good people. Could you also please post a poignant 'Member photo'; to help them connect? Wouldn't a similar Member Name also be helpful?
I hope you can quit, love sobriety, and have a healthy baby.
Oh, do you know of the many adoption options. . . including where couples may 'care for' expecting women, and provide benefits?
Please tell us your thoughts.
Peace & Blessings