Just keep trying ladybug. Use every tool you have to quit drinking. Take action, lots of it. Just remember alcoholism is a deadly insidious progressive disease. The fact that you cameback is a miracle. This disease is more than just getting drunk and feeling bad the next day. It's about destroying your health and surcoming to the effects of ingesting copious amounts of poison over time. It will never get easier to quit. Only more difficult with time.
Social settings are a joke compared to death from alcoholism. Just my opinion.
Hang in there girl. Just don't drink today.