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On my first day sober I wrote ( typed ) out a list of all of the negative things about drinking, examples of every single bad thing that I could remember that had happened as a result of me poisoning myself with alcohol. Not just recent stuff but even dating back to my college days, before I became an alcoholic.
I started reading anything I could get my hands on about recovery too.
Sort of put it in my head about how self destructive the alcohol is for me and then gave me equal amounts of hope that I could overcome this.
Stick close to us here too! Let us help you through the early days. Ive been here for a little while and notice a direct correlation between the amount people post here and the level of success they have. Like anything else, the more you put in, the more you get out of it!