Gosh, this reminds me of a film I watched as part of my town's film festival.
The film was about a former prize fighter and his new protege. At one point the fighter said to his protege, "We're only as sick as the secrets we keep."
I watched the film very early in my recovery journey. I didn't understand the importance of the statement. I didn't even think I kept secrets!
That you understand your secret-keeping and why you do it is very positive.
What would happen if you told somebody your secret? Could there be a release from it's bondage?