Thanks Richie.
I spoke to another recovering person concerning this as I don't want to be aggressive. He mentioned that assertiveness was the healthy option and that type of thing would come out in the steps. So grateful for support I'm here to change not be the same borderline psycho i can be when using.
Asked my former sponsor if he'll take me back on. He's at work right now I'll hear back soon I'm sure. I want a man who is loving, generous, understanding and doing the program as best he can. Too many wannabe tough guys and angry men in the fellowship most fall over and get humility those who don't are just a holes, messages like how many years they white knuckled, how they don't make many friends etc bla bla how much money they make how much they've managed to expand their business (egos) bla bla - seriously don't want a bar of what they imagine they have.
I start step 1 written work today. Time to learn to love again, even the jerks.