I like that story marty......and i have yet to show self control as i am new here and not on any program. I still binged at the bars with all those so called freinds and ladys and good times. After loosing my licence 3 months ago i would role up on my mountain bike after work and lock it up and hope its still there in the morning. That was tuesday and i want to make it the last time. My job is in danger and my life is situation critical. So i took the rest of the month off to find help and lock my self up for a while and i hope you all can point me in the right direction to freedom.