Hi Marty,
I don't usually post, but your own post brought me out, so here I am.
I can too readily relate to what you've said. All of it. I'm so pleased, grateful, amazed... that you didn't follow through. YES...all of those.
You are truly an amazing human being to have gone through that moment in time. Kudos to you! The new life we choose to live is filled with moments like these, (well, perhaps NOT filled,but maybe perhaps at the beginning?) I know. We-and I emphasize WE-need to share these moments, like you did and get through them, AGAIN like you did. It makes my own 'drive-by' seem so much easier. Thank you!
this lifeseeker thanks you from the bottom of my heart
CHEERS!