Thanks so much, all of you. If it was not for me only only having 3 dollars in my pocket at the time, I would have prabably went in. I actually even went to an ATM. Thankfully God gave me a little sanity back, and I forced myself home. I am afraid I have let up on the program of action. I have been going to meetings and just existing. Saying what others want to hear. I feel so much of my old defects coming back. I have been isolating again too. All bad dangerous things. I just needed to get this all out someware. Thanks for listening.