I know what you mean, Marty. However, I also know that if I was in there among those people, drinking away, I might have a good time for a little while, but it would eventually suck, big time. One drink turns in to many, and if it doesn't, I want it too. My fun is a little more understated now. It's hanging out with some friends after a meeting, taking my 9-year-old daughter to a movie, relaxing with a good book, or having dinner with my Dad. I like my life now and I don't want to go back.
As Trish said, we all have down times in our programs. Actually, we all have down times in life! You will get through this. And if you can make it through without drinking, you will be stronger for it. Not so easy to see when you're in the middle of it, but keep the faith!!!!
Hugs--