Hey Vic.
Got your Basic Text handy?
Read the first paragraph of "Why are We Here?". ( the part after the italicised.text)
Through drugs we tried to avoid reality, pain, and misery. When the drugs wore off we realized we had the same problems and they were becoming worse. WE sought relief by using again and again - more drugs, more often
Any of this seem familiar?
Remember why you got clean in the first place?
Guess what bud, we can't outrun reality, pain, and misery .. and the damn drugs quit working on us. Otherwise we'd all be using right?
Of course we feel like "we don't fit in". I dunno about you but one of the reasons I started using in teh first place was to feel like "I fit in" to a bigger group. (Wish I'd have picked milionaires to try and fit in with instead of dope firnds lol)
I gurantee you you stay put in one spot long enough clean and you'll start to feel like you fit in.. and then there will be days where that old monster rears it's head and talks it's bs to you again.
And I hope you get your butt to a meeting, or get on SR and yell for help when it does.
It says right on the jacket of teh Text to "give yourself a break and read it"
((((Vic)))))