Thanks, aussie. Lets be strong through the season together, huh? Holidays are hard for me to resist as well. I am sober today, with no plans to drink. In hindsight, it was a combo of exhaustion, embarrassment and despair that sent me in a tailspin and I got so pent up, I knew of no other source of relief. Going forward I will try to remain more aware and take action earlier, like working out or going for a walk or something. I've got a lot going on in my head right now and multiple high priorities. Not an excuse, but I need to be especially wary right now. Not feeling the most secure.