Originally Posted by
Kboys 
Is he dead? Has he killed someone? Is he broken down and wandering in the woods somewhere? .......Then, deeper down the hole, I actually got to a point that part of me hoped the call I would get was that he was dead...
Me too. Beyond checking our county's arrest website (they update regularly), calling hospitals (only a few, very desperate times), checking online for his call/text usage to see if he was contacting others (I was SICK, y'all) --- you all can't possibly know how many times I've theoretically planned RAH's funeral in my head. (well, You in This Forum can) It was the strangest feeling of loss & relief - I don't know which was stronger. It didn't feel good, just over.
