Originally Posted by
MattM316 
What frustrates me is that I know I don't need it at all.
Apart from when you have bad withdrawals (where it's a physical need for alcohol), I think it's 99% all mental/psychological.
I haven't drank since last Saturday, so that's 8 days. Which is nothing, I don't expect a round of applause for it.
But in that period I can *honestly* say that I haven't missed it or wished I had alcohol in the house.
That's what frustrates me. Because I know what always happens is that I think "ok i'll have a drink now and it'll be fine" and that more often than not leads to daily drinking.
Matt, 8 days is super! What's a plan to keep going? Now sounds like a great time for an AA meeting, as I always say, and regardless of what program you choose...choosing one. That AV will come back, like you describe, til you change your whole outlook.
Agreeing with most of what Brenda said - one aside: someone on another thread posted about a calendar and marking days. Part of what he shared is that he would tally up days at the end of the year and if he had more sober than not, it was a victory. This is the kind of thing an AV will tell you to keep you drinking. Whether you subconsciously plan ahead in this kind of way (how I took his post, in a way) or you just kinda sorta commit to "trying" sobriety, you won't get the results of a new life without alcohol. Like we say around here, you have to want to be sober more than you want to drink. And you can make that choice.
You can do it- don't drink today. Good luck.