Originally Posted by
shockozulu 
Spent a year of my childhood in a cult and still looking for God sometimes. And 30+ years later still having night terrors over it. Know you aren't alone.
I just used to write it out. Then my former sister threw over 20 years of my journals away and ever since I struggle to get thoughts on paper. I'm working on it four years later
Cults are horrible! I think that a part of my codie stuff came from the church I was raised in. We were taught to put on a perfect face and be perfect wives and never show anger or unhappiness!
That really sucks your journals got thrown out! I have written in a few over the years but I never seem to stick with it.