Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
Consider seeking some mental health assistance/counseling for this. Thinking about it and planning it are 2 completely different things, but both are a sign of something amiss. There are free help lines nationally and most likely locally too that can help you sort through these kinds of issues.
Yeah I will seek some help if that happens again.
THIS IS THE FIRST DAY THAT I AM FEELING (well almost) COMPLETLY NORMAL.
From time to time my minds is still ''remembering details'' or creating new false memories, but at least I am now mostly focused on the present and future.
Whatever happened happened. Time heals everything.