Bulga,
The physical addiction goes away pretty quick, the mental...lasts forever.
It gets easier and easier to deal with, but it is there. That is why people relapse after years of sobriety. Who would intentionally poison themselves after a full recovery.
Sounds to me like you are still healing from some serious hard drinking. I was the same way. I would lay around all the time and sleep in my car at work.
I think it has to do w the pancreas and dopamine in the brain. It took months to settle down.
Also, my anxiety was insane for many months. It took well over a year for me to stabilize to this level and it is still improving at 17 months.
Thanks for the post.