Unfortunately I'm back at day 1, and probably the reason for this is that my girlfriend put us on a "break" yesterday. A 3 month break. It's probably over. Don't know how to feel about it, but last night I didn't want to feel anything about it and drank. Pointless decision.
So I have a long and challenging road ahead of me. I'm sure the journey will be worth it, but I don't look forward to the struggle.