Y'all, I'm trying to find some kind of focus. I really have no desire to drink. I'm just so disappointed with myself for ever getting so out of control. I can usually moderate my drinking, but only by limiting what I have available. I went out, got completely smashed, blacked out. I'm pretty sure I had alcohol poisoning. I had a serious hangover for 4 days. Now it's just guilt. Anyway, I'm trying to focus on running. I've been a runner for a year and a half. I'm thinking if I focus on training it will help.