I'm sad, scared of what will happen, and sort of resigned. There is no good in any of this.
I'm also angry that I am the bad guy, and the addict has no responsibility, no accountability.
I'm tired of walking on eggshells and not hurting his feelings because it might push him away. Suggesting rehab is going to push him away? Well supporting him through this mess and NOT pushing it hasn't helped at all.
In fact, each time he has lived with us, he has moved out worse off than when he came, and it certainly isn't from lack of us trying.