Thanx Dawg...
I kno you get it. What you said about being sick and knowing the easy fix is no more really hit me. That is exactly how I feel, too. And I don't want to let my family, myself, you, everyone here down. I just feel really helpless and miserable. Still hanging on, but I don't kno. I am so disappointed in myself.
Just sucking one breath in after another. Trying not to freak the hell out. There are going to be pills literally steps away in a few, and it's like a beacon. Just sitting there.
I really, really have to stop thinking.