Cranking the jams and it definitely boosts the endorphins Sugar.
I have a pretty nice drum set so I can really let loose.
Feels so dang good.
Yes a lot of what is happening is the Xanax talking to you. That is some powerful stuff in it's own right.
Beating it and never doing that again is critical.
I'm done. I have to be. Like everything in my life I took it to the red line... to the max.
I have always been on the edge in many ways. Weeks alone hiking or taking this boat I have alone on Lake Powell into the wilderness.
Or the swamps of Louisiana. It's crazy being alone but I love it.
Again I am so proud of you. You have climbed a steep mountain this week. Others may not have achieved what you have.
We need to live our lives now clean. I've seen the red line with Vicodin. I walked up to the abyss and the abyss looked back into me.
But I conquered it by stepping back and taking the path back home. And I am at home.
Thank you so much Sugar. Keep writing lets get a couple weeks behind us!!