Helen,
I am not going to say sorry to hear. You are not making excuses so I won't. Takes courage to get on this forum and let your "classmates" know.
I will say I empathize with your actions and your resolve to start again.
That is what I admire.
Along my life path I learned to love stoicism. "enduring pain without showing emotion or fear" - only reason I mention this your fantastic username.... I love roman / greek mythology.
Well, to some degree I have to unlearn that.
I just realized why the folks who set up this forum created "classes".
I feel like we are in third grade and we all rush over when someone gets a boo boo.
Have great night - enjoy the book.