Woke up without pain. It's been a long time. I really must be a bit nuts to put up with that for so long. I've been lying in bed reviewing papers. I am calm. it feels familiar but also slightly alien.
No meeting today I'll instead be going to a (specifically for 12 step travellers) meditation group. The first time in my life I ever had the thought 'it's going to be ok' was during a meditation session in early recovery last time.
If I'm not going to meditation in a specific day I will be going to a meeting. Sanity is precious. I'm gonna hold onto it as best I can.