Thanks for posting, sugarangel. Though opiates weren't my drug of choice (I was all about the booze and benzos), my physical and emotional withdrawal were pretty rough...specifically the first few days. The best thing someone told me a few days in was, "You never have to feel this way again." They were right. I haven't felt that way since and like you it was not my first attempt to get sober.
So, you never, ever have to feel this way again! Ever! You just need to find a recovery plan that works for you. Have you thought about seeing a doctor and talking to them about treatment options? I'd recommend that and a support group like AA or NA and SR, of course!