I just want to give up. I am so tired. How do you get through even one day when everything just feels so awful? Or even one second, which is kind of where I am. I just zombie my way through life anymore. Whether I'm high or not. Nothing seems to work anymore. I can't get high anymore. Just unsick. I hate the life I've been living, and I want desperately to change it. I just keep falling down. Over and over. So sick of the game.