Welcome shazam!
I understand how you are feeling, I felt alot of anxiety when I stopped as well. It seems like the only solution is to just to start by not drinking. If you are having alot of problems then maybe talking with your doctor would be best.
When I first started I wrote out all of the ways I saw that alcohol was creating bad things in my life. By writing it out it really helped my resolve to stop. Anytime I was tempted Id refer back to that list.
There are a ton of great threads here that refer to different approaches so maybe check those out, post here alot, read alot, give yourself permission to heal. It took me the first month before I really started to feel better, not surprising since I was poisoning myself for a long time.
Stay close to us here. Everyone is so helpful and supportive!