Thanks for the feedback. I think at the time when people would ask, I'd say something like "he had a problem" insinuating what the problem was. And people who are not as close to me wouldnt ask for much more than that. It would feel good to be honest for the moment but I have just been rethinking it a bit. I guess it doesn't pay because whats done is done. Thats just another pointless thing to worry about. Its been strange since the run-in with him. I havent cried or felt overly emotional but I have just had such an overwhelming urge to talk to him more. I haven't given in which I know is the best thing for me but I'd be lying if I said I didnt have the phone in my hand going back and forth about dialing the number several times.