I'm back after a really bad week where I let myself down again and hurting bad.
Work conference away from home made me self conscious so I drank to overcome this and flirted badly with my boss. Nothing happened but I feel really ashamed as I'm engaged and should know better.
Had to face colleagues in the morning looking rough and feeling stupid.
Fast forward to weekend and had some wine again last night watching TV with partner. He doesn't think I have a problem but just bad at moderating.
I'm just so down that I continue this cycle of getting smashed at weekends for no reason. I have no motivation to do anything and am wasting my life.
I really need help. I don't know who to turn to. So sad...