Hi Bunny,
I haven't had yours or Stevie's experience, but I have been in some low spots over the years, and experience tells me they always pass, and my faith is based in that experience. I know you have done the work and, while you are in an awful place right now, something good will come of it.
It will pass and you will be much richer for the experience, experience that you can use for the benefit of others. My prayers are with you.