A friend in the rooms shares that he prayed for a willingness to be willing - thought of the this as I read your thread.
Some say we have to be ready. For me I believe that is only looked at in arrears as we gain time. Am I ready? Well, at 3-5-7 years of sobriety I guess the answer was yes!
Making not drinking my number one priority and staying sober long enough for the lights to turn on is what was important for me.
It's the steps we take and not the meetings we make..........that's my ESH