Nonblonde, have you ever listed out the positive and negative consequences of continuing to drink? This might help to put it into perspective, to begin to see clearly and break through the illusions or allure of it all.
This is great for getting it all down:
http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc..._Worksheet.pdf
It has four parts. And it helps to do them all. And to be really detailed and honest when writing it out.