Originally Posted by
SunnyDenver 
It's like I want sobriety but somehow not enough. Maybe I need to dig deeper and absolutely need to make sobriety priority one, ruthlessly, every day. But, in all of this, I will not give up. Thanks for reading!
Ay yi yi yi...do I relate with your post. For me...you nailed it! When I truly "want" sobriety I do know it's there..... it has been in the past for me. And then somewhere along the line I don't want it anymore.
Will there come a day when I will truly let go of some sensuous allure, no matter how ficticious...and grow up... show up really.
For some reason I keep going back to hide.