The part of you that wants to want it is the part to focus on. That's the part that will act on your best behalf and take action to get you sober. Listen to it and act.
And do not delay.
One way I see it that helps me: A craving doesn't mean I don't want sobriety or want to throw it all. Not at all. Cravings (just old habits, and a misinterpretation in the survival and reward mechanism in the brain) happen but I do not act on them, because I don't have to act on them, and the more I don't act on them, the less I will crave over time.)
The better part of you wants sobriety. Go with that.