Thank you everyone for your responses.
We talked again last night about it, I told him I have some major trust issues now and that its not going to be easy to believe him if he does end up off of it because whats to stop him from lying again. I probably sound like some dumb girl who is love with some guy who lied to her and shes being blindsided, but I swear I am not. He has always been honest about his drug use in his past, he had a really awful childhood and his whole family has issues. He is constantly talking to his younger cousin who is headed down the wrong path about stopping drug use and getting on the right track (which now I keep thinking, hypocrite) but he genuinely cares. I can confidently say I dont think he would go back to pain medication although I could see him slipping back into using suboxone if it gets too hard.
He did say he would call a local detox yesterday and he didn't. He told me he was waiting for his boss to get back to work so he can fess up to him and hopefully get some help. Excuse? Maybe.
I know things are hard now and about to become harder, its not easy not being able to help more.
Thanks again for the responses. They helped a lot