Hi Sunny Denver - welcome back
Looking back I put a heck of a lot of effort into my drinking - not only the getting the booze and drinking it, but hiding it, dealing with the consequences, changing plans cos I was drunk or sick... lying, putting things off...
I finally realised I really needed put that kind of effort into not drinking.
I don't think you need to wait to 'hit bottom' or wait until you're 'ready' - a good part of you is already ready right now, or you wouldn't be here.
What you need to do is listen to your true voice, the one that nourishes you and protects you, and helps you grow...not your addictive voice.
Listen to your true voice and back that up with action and you're well on the way to a different outcome
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