Hi YoungHyde,
Most people start drinking because they dont want to feel anything but it is a catch 22; I am sorry about your mom is hard i know i would not want to live with mine either (i love her very much but no thanks) I am just saying for a while till you get a job and a place. try to get some help for your drinking believe me it will get worst and all that numbing is going to harm you. here are my two cents, take care and keep posting
