You think you have no reason to be here, but you do.
We all make ripples in the pond of life.
There are ALWAYS people who care.
A lot of us have been where you are.
I have been there many times.
I have been saved from trying to take my own life too many times.
Something greater than me is keeping me here.
You have a purpose, you just haven't found it yet.
You're putting yourself in a self-imposed prison of doom, despair and death.
You deserve better.
It takes patience.
It takes perseverance.
It takes faith.
It takes more than just yourself.
You are looking down a narrow tunnel right now.
Give yourself the chance of time. Time free of drink, and self-loathing and recrimination.
Reach out to someone in real time who can offer you support- you will be astounded at the people who are willing to help.
You matter. Very much.
Step out of the tunnel and imagine what your loss of life would do to the people who love and care for you.
Then step back into yourself and imagine how you would feel about this is your last day and you wasted it hating life and all it seemed to offer. Is this really how you'd want to spend it?
You are not selfish, or broken beyond repair. You just don't know how to cope right now.
What you need to do is make a project of yourself. Start looking for resources for rebuilding yourself. They are out there.
First, stop drinking, get some sleep.
You matter. Very much. And all of us here care. Make no mistake of that.
