Hello poppy and welcome to SR. I'm not that diffrent then you. Really "thought" my life was in order even though I knew I was an alcoholic. No DUis, same job for 15 years and married for thirty years. Everything seemed great. I tried every single day, and I really mean everyday to wean myself off, drink less, or stop drinking completely. It never worked and then I realized fourteen years had disappeared. I can not moderate in any fashion. With a small amount of sober time now I realize that my life really wasn't that great. I love being sober and the improvements I've found. So I guess you could say I did wean myself off of alcohol ....it just took fourteen years. I do not suggest my method. Good luck